jiminie nono i dont live alone lol. so basically during week days I'll go to college and come home only at 7pm. i'll spend an hour in my room and come out only to eat dinner. then again back to my room. My parents do get upset time to time that i dont sit with them after dinner. But I've tried. Multiple times. They just worsen my mood and give me more reasons not to spend much time with them again but again i also feel bad that im not able to spend quality time with them.
Well, they think my way of thinking and doing things are very different from my family and have told me that they find it very hard to understand me. So everytime i say something or express my thoughts and feelings, it just becomes an argument making me regret for opening my mouth.
Things in my house is kinda complicated to expain lol. now that i have to spend a whole day with my mom, its like i wanna sit with her, have deep convos and hear her out but i also know its not possible express myself. i also start feeling bad that shes right there but im kinda forced to ignore her or like holdback myself coz it wont turn out well.if im alone I'll atleast talk to myself and wont feel bad abt anything.